Thursday, May 05, 2005

maths test. it was much worse den a nightmare. cos it's reality. it's a serious test, and i did only like less den half the paper.. in all my life, ive nv encountered such a situation b4.. of cos, maths is not my best sub, but still.. i didnt expect it to be this bad.. it was like question after question, almost consecutively, and i couldnt do them.. i was really scared lah.. all so difficult, but guess wad.. i finished it abt 20 mins be4 time.. but duh cos i didnt do all the questions.. and the worst thing is the question i couldnt do were the highest weightage.. and i couldn't do any of the graph questions.. the sinking feeling was horrible.. it's like ms lee nv even teach much on graph cos there was no time.. so my knowledge was only on-the-surface.. so obviously i wont know how to do larh!! the standard was much much higher den the past year questions and the quizzes.. i feel like banging my head on the wall.. and the ratio one.. i could have done it.. i felt like jus giving up half way and hand in the paper as it is.. i felt like tearing it.. i dun want it back.. oh wadeva..

den me and shu hui were trying to be happy abt it.. started calling ourselves happy losers and gd failures.. but after tt, we realised we were merely consoling ourselves.. and cos the results are not out yet, so there's somehow still a faint glimmer of hope.. and we dun feel so bad... yet. but once the results come out and confirms our failure.. the rest is history. it wasnt even a test.. more like i stare at the paper and the paper stares back at me..

i really like to thank the teachers for making me feel so stupid, dumb, retarded and out-of-place.. i feel like crying.. yet there r no tears for me to shed.. i shant cry over four sheets of paper.. it's not worth crying over.

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